Ever get that feeling? Is it depression? What is it? It seems like whenever really good things seem to be happening or about to happen I get this weird sensation of dread somewhere deep in my gut. A kind of creeping sadness. The sensation that I might be doing something wrong. Maybe it’s the fear that things aren’t really working out as well as I think they are. Or that it’s all gonna go up in flames … or … nothing.
I often tend to overthink things, and sometimes I read too much into things. Other times I am completely impulsive. I learned a long time ago that expectations dangerous. So maybe I’m just preparing myself for failure.
I need learn to be more impulsive, I think. I do my best work that way.
